Trust in the Lord with all your heart.... even when your heart is breaking

My last post was about not taking things out of your life when they are still useful.

But today had been a day for letting go.

Strangely both posts have been inspired by the same thing.

I have just got a new computer and deciding what information, and what bookmarks to transfer over from the old one to the new one made me look both backwards and forwards.

As well as realising that there was a lot of good stuff on my old computer which was still inspiring and edifying, I also found that there was a Huge amount of links and downloads which I had saved before my world came crashing down over two years ago.

The source of my heartbreak was when my grandson who had been brought up by us since he was five weeks old went to live with his mum and dad instead.

He was five and a half when he moved out and I had been homeschooling him, so I had massive amounts of resources saved for teaching him in the future.

It came to the crunch today because I had to let go of who I thought I was, my plans, my hopes, my dreams, how I had expected things to be. Although it has been over two years since he went it was still so hard to let go of these things because of what they represented.

I do trust in the Lord and even when my heart was breaking just after he went (and for a long time) I knew that God was in control.

But even with all that two years down the line I had to pray and struggle to leave these things behind.